Letter To My Teacher, Marie Dotts

This letter concerns a TCC ton-of-bricks insight about how “we are drained by our habit energies” that I had to share. Along with it comes the inevitable chagrin that accompanies new awareness, tempting us to ask, “How could I have missed knowing this my entire life? It was there all the time but I just didn’t see it.” To that egoic reaction I can now say more on the positive side, “We see when we are ready. At least I am ready now to see and to feel in new ways.” TCC has started me on a path of newvibrational education.

Today I felt a big insight waiting for me, so I sat down and closed my eyes. Boom. The nearly inaudible suggestion came to review/view all of my relationships in my heart (instead of in my mind), feeling their vibration, recalling faces, minds and personalities. When I did so, I realized that:

• I have formed all of my friendships with loved ones, friends and acquaintances based on my mind’s predilections for how people think, express love (or not), appear, speak and generally navigate the world. This habit, I see now, was largely based on my social conditioning and on psychology and spiritual biases. It was a filter of preferences with an intellectual basis, rather than a heart-frequency foundation.

• When I “vibrationally” ran through the list of people close to me and mentally felt their vibration for the first time, I realized with a distinct shock that I had been relating to them through the mask of their smiling faces and protestations of love for me (when in fact they usually want something), and that I had been ignoring the draining energies behind the masks. No wonder I have been so tired.

• Now it will be relatively easy to scan people’s vibrations while interacting and when meeting new people, rather than focusing on their psychological stances, use of words, jokes, coy gestures, habitual banter and other cover-ups that shield the heart’s true Essence, which is Love, whether acknowledged by either side or not. Vibrational frequency is the telling give-away. I have missed it many times, or ignored it by buying into the narrative that a person wanted to convey in order to be acceptable or purvey a strategy.

• By ignoring flowing (or stuck) vibrations taking place in any moment, I have allowed my energies to be siphoned off, like water from a jug on a sweltering day. It is vital to budget energy, time, money and resources in order to maintain and increase the flow of life and in order to renew energies, expand time, attract more funds, and create and access new and more resources for the greater work.

• TCC has helped me to jump out of yet another box – that of cultural and intellectual/educational conditioning – through paying more attention to the breath in everyday life and paying more attention to my frequencies and those of others, in spite of what they are saying, how they are dressed and how they seem to comport themselves. This “frequency-scanning” is another mode of witness consciousness, which is vital in letting go of all that is not this Self (in Sanskrit it is neti-neti, or “not this, not this”).

• My big take-away is the awareness that as I embrace silence more, not everyone is healthy enough to have a front-row seat in my life. Continual vibrational vetting is essential to maintain my energy and health so that I can give to many, not just a few, in the global work which I am here to do.

Never would I have guessed, Marie, that TCC could be a vehicle for the delivery of so many impactful insights as it has brought us in the five short months since we started our classes (warrior training!) with you. We are integrating them immediately (otherwise, what is the point of having them?) and thank you again for facilitating them. With deep gratitude and mirthful love.