The Secret Of Remembering

It’s 3 am. I am awakened by fear. It’s actually more like terror. Sheer terror. I am contemplating a career change and my mind is going to the worst possible conclusions. I’m engulfed by fear, which is spreading to all aspects of my life. I am not connected or grounded. I am in a dark and lonely place.

Besides not sleeping well, I am also distrusting of people and I can’t make even simple decisions. I’m unhappy and stressed out. I’m disconnected from everyone. I’m practicing my TCC but it seems not to be working. I’m full of anxiety. I also lost faith in what people were telling me, which is very uncharacteristic.

Justin wrote about remembering (not learning new things) what is within us. And he wrote about not doubting our own experiences.

I needed to talk to someone who could understand what I was facing, another TCC practitioner. I knew if we talked, it would help me to ground. I also needed to remember the time when I was very strongly connected, when I knew the truth about a situation and had no fear. I thought of when I was facing a major health challenge and had no fear, when I knew things would be okay. I started remembering that time of certainty and fearlessness.

It helped me to reconnect; it was a time of a strong connection. T’ai Chi Chih and meditation are wonderful tools for both. I remembered it, felt it, re-lived it. I was conscious of my heart-mind connection.

Then everything changed; I was connected again. I felt peace and love. For a few weeks, I still had periods of feeling disconnected and fearful, but they left as I remembered that time of total connection. I learned the truth by doing my TCC practice and remembering. I often say when you realize you are not grounded, you are half way to being grounded. Likewise, when you realize you are not connected, you are in a position to reconnect.

When Albert Einstein was having trouble dealing with the theory of relativity, he would play his violin to feel connected and in harmony with the world.

The ways we can reconnect are really important. I’m guessing others have additional ways. I felt very lost for a few weeks, but I am back. My connection is solid now. I feel positive; I’m staying in the present. The heart is more powerful than fear. When the heart is focused on the truth, there is no fear. Fear can disconnect us for a time but knowing the truth within us strongly connects us to the heart. I’m grateful that Justin shared TCC with us and taught us to remember what is within all of us.