What I’m Learning

I continue to have breakthroughs. I also see how insecure, proud, vain, and stuck in my intellect I have been. I am trying hard not to judge myself for having been trapped in my conditioning (family, cultural, religious, national, gender, educational, and spiritual devotee), as it continues to fall away. I see how each of us is not only a product of our conditioning, but how we identify with it. Hence, we are stuck, reactive, and asleep, though perhaps (erroneously) smug about how “awake” we think we are. It tickles my funny bone to become aware of how unaware I have been.

No one is who they have taken themselves to be. We are none of that; our essence and divinity is invisible. Staying grounded, present to the Presence and connected within — and letting that Love/Light shine — is all I want to do. Everyone is Divine, yet most don’t know it yet. As I meet them without judgment, we make a conscious connection that reinforces that we have never been disconnected. We are all aspects of the One Love, all that is.

My joy knows no bounds. As I focus on head, heart, and belly, more revelations are provided. How sweet it is, this beloved Chi energy.

The blissful Chi enwraps me and swirls within like a golden honeyed stream. Aspects of that always-in-flux context are:

• TCC is a life-long practice that goes deeper and deeper and higher and higher.

• There are stages, and we can get stuck or deluded or rusty, yet we keep moving.

• Our hearts will open, our wills will engage, and we will keep surmounting challenges softly yet strongly, as water wears down boulders.

• Our egos will kick up a fuss and we can ignore them, focusing on the belly-and-feet, heart-and-feet, brow-chakra-and-feet.

• Watch and correct posture and alignment continually. Don’t get hunched over and focused on the ground. Stand upright and be radiant, naturally.

• Stay resilient in mind, emotion, and body. Practice empty mind. Avoid opinions/pronouncements/conclusions. It’s mind-yapping.

• Notice when/if we are holding the breath. Notice where the attention is in any given moment. Come back home to the tan t’ien and the heart.

• Always be happy. Happiness is inside awaiting recognition. Let it out more often until its playfulness is readily available, like a child’s. (Young children, according to scientists, laugh 400 times a day until they go to kindergarten, when they stop laughing as much. Adults laugh six to 40 times a day.) I am dedicated to bringing more natural, uncontrived laughter to each moment — for no reason than merely letting the inner laughter of the burbling Chi express itself in more uninhibited ways.

• Stay loose, focused, soft and gentle. Let hardness, control and distractions fall away, moment-to-moment.