Transformation Into a New Beginning

As I share my first story as an accredited teacher, I realize that I am forever a student of T’ai Chi Chih (TCC). I have heard those words from other teachers, but now I feel them. As I peel the artichoke leaves and dip them into mayo, I realize I am the artichoke. For years, I had been shedding layers, “letting go,” until my heart felt it was time to share this gift of TCC.

Sharing this practice seems to be Volume Two on a journey towards purpose. What is the driving force that develops and then leads us to teach? Is it ego, or could it be the teh (inner sincerety) that Justin speaks of? The teacher label had never resonated, but “instructor” and “being of service” did. I feel deeply Justin’s words that TCC is “a service to humanity.” It is truer with each passing day. It has become of utmost importance to share the feeling of TCC and to share it well. It has changed my life outlook in so many positive ways. Sharing it can make a difference in this crazy world of power and greed.

The ego drives us to be the best we can be, choosing and using a vast array of words to express the experience of TCC. Practicing with different teachers, I have heard the same thing over and over, expressed in different ways. Then, there’s that one thing that creates an “aha!” moment, where you feel it inside and it all magically makes sense.

Becoming an instructor is a humbling honor. You are suddenly on the other side, looking for magical words to engage and entertain new and returning students. It is more of a challenge than I expected. As if actually demonstrating the movements with words coming out of your mouth isn’t enough, it makes it even more interesting to watch new students struggle with balance issues, with arms waving. Then there’s making general corrections, keeping a steady pace, and counting. I’ve gained even more respect for my teachers, who’ve done those things with such ease and grace.

Luckily, I embrace the idea that TCC is a practice, not a perfect. I continue to do my best with the intention of improving each class and developing my communication and multi-tasking skills. The occasional remark of “I felt that” or “my joints have felt better since starting” are indicators that I am on the right path. As students come and go, I hope that they take with them a piece of TCC and are able to improve their lives in some way. They have been given the tools. The benefits are there if the student practices regularly. The journey continues, and with much gratitude, I always give thanks.